So yesterday I talked about seeking out the positives, and believe me, today I tried my hardest to do that but seemed to encounter intense emotions at every turn! Emotions of anger, hurt, disbelief, sadness, and random moments of joy here and there! Work presented MANY challenges today, including a possible problem with our school regarding testing issues! Lunch with one of my dearest friends was intense as we spoke about our connection, his struggle processing his mom's recent passing, and our anxieties about the current state of the world! Therapy for my son with Theresa and Kristin brought on many tears as I processed my feelings about his conference with them! Those tears, though, also brought on feelings of joy as I felt loved, supported and most importantly understood! Home also presented me with intensity as I conversed with my husband Felipe about my day and he shared with me his frustrations about his new job. My heart breaks for him as he truly feels unfulfilled by and unconnected to his students and teaching environment! He truly is one of my heroes...although we have our moments of conflict...his strength, determination, passion, and commitment to and for our family never ceases to amaze me! He has sacrificed so much for our collective happiness, but I fear he has lost himself in the process! I want nothing more than for him to be happy, but all I can do is support him on his journey....and be understanding of his struggles! So as I sit here writing this, I realize that this blog and my endless ranting is allowing me to process these emotions...to work through their intensity and to help me find that brighter side of life!
When I signed in to post my thoughts for today, I encountered a comment posted by Stephanie to one of my previous entries....reading her comment definitely brought out one of the brightest moments of my day! Although we've been friends for nearly 30 (that's right girl...30!) years, Stephanie has never meant as much to me as she has in the last 3 years! She has been there as a support for me when my life seemed to be falling apart, and I will forever hold her close in my heart! Thank you for your love, for your support and for making me laugh!
Well, I think I've processed enough for now....I want to go join my husband on the couch...let him know how much I love and appreciate him and all he brings to my life....that for sure will be the brightest moment of my day!
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